A mother’s letter she wrote to herself 2 years after her beautiful daughter was born with Down Syndrome.

Frankie has just been born, she looks up at you with her beautiful almond-shaped eyes and you know immediately that she has Down Syndrome. In that moment the first words that tumble out of your mouth are ‘she’s perfect.’ And she is. The journey begins…

Hold tight.

You are in for a ride.

Just not quite the ride you might be expecting.

I’ve got a few things to share with you.

You will cry and you will grieve and that’s ok. Talk it out with the people you love, make contact with parents already on this journey. You don’t have much personal experience to draw on but as one Mama will say to you in the not so distant future, ‘my life having a child with a disability is not what I expected it to be’. You’ll discover this in your own time. For now, you have your own preconceived ideas to work through. You have fears, worries, and questions. What will the future look like for us all? What about the dreams I had for my child? Will she be included in school, in society?

Unlike the language used during prenatal screening, your baby is not a ‘risk’ or ‘abnormal’. Frankie won’t suffer with Down Syndrome. Down Syndrome is a condition, not an illness or a disease.

You’ve just had a pretty smooth pregnancy, quick birth, no trip to NICU. Frankie doesn’t need heart surgery and she will breastfeed like a champ. In fact, these first months will prove to dispel everything you ‘should expect’ with Down Syndrome. Frankie will meet typical milestones over these first months.

You will be so fortunate to have the most chill baby you’ve ever met. Breathe and enjoy these moments that you’ll never get again with her. The pace of this life is one you will come to cherish, unhurried and beautiful. 

You will realize how fragile you can be but also how strong you really are. You will discover all over again the amazing people you already have in your life, they will stay by your side and love your baby with the same intensity that you do. You will be overwhelmed with their love, support, and generosity. So overwhelmed you never quite feel that you’ve found the right words or ways to say thank you.

You will initially worry about what people will think and say. And what you will say, do I mention Frankie has Down Syndrome or just leave it unsaid? Do people know just by looking at her? You’ll soon realize you just do not care. You’ll realize you don’t need to explain or justify Frankie. She is who she is. You will make mistakes along the way. You will think of the perfect reply while you’re lying in bed at night replaying a conversation, but you will grow and you will learn from your own and others experiences. You’ll come to know when people are well-meaning and you’ll also step up and advocate when it’s needed.

As a brand new Mum navigating your way through this new world you’ll be stunned when a nurse, yes a nurse, says ‘it’s a shame you had a little downs’ after you have just been boasting about how well she is doing at 5 months and how in love you are.  You will tell her you don’t think it’s a shame at all and be able to tame your mama bear instincts to rip her to shreds. Instead, you take the issue higher hoping that this will inform the way the entire staff deal with future parents who have children with different abilities and medical needs.

A lot of the information you will read or be told will be outdated. You will soon discover that so much is now known about how our children learn, and their health needs. You will be in touch with families who will welcome you with open arms and share the journeys of their incredible children, you will learn about and talk with people who have Down Syndrome who are accomplishing amazing things and making the world a brighter, better place.

There may be times you feel anxious about joining playgroups, feeling like you don’t relate to other parents, worried about how they will react. But as you push past these feelings of insecurity and uncertainty you’ll meet beautiful people with open minds and open hearts. They won’t treat you or Frankie differently.  We are all facing our own struggles, they may look different but they are all just as important. Some days we own it and other days we just try to keep our heads above water. 

Parenting is tiring but when people make throwaway comments about whether a child like yours has the right to even exist, it can become downright exhausting. Sometimes you can brush these comments aside and keep your head up but other times you’ll want to just curl up with your daughter and keep her from the outside world. But you’ll know she has too much to give, expectations to exceed, views to change, a world to explore and a life to enjoy. Her resilience in this life will motivate you to keep moving forward through the struggles that will also come.   

Frankie will teach you things you didn’t realize you needed to know. You’ll not only become a Mum, you’ll become a researcher and an advocate.  You will earn more creases on your face, from worry, and from laughter. But isn’t that just parenting?!

You will spread awareness and work to make this world a place where Frankie and other people with disabilities, and complex needs are safe, supported, and feel that they belong and their rich contributions to this world are acknowledged and valued.

You will look back and wish you had never shed a tear because there is nothing to grieve for. Those worries you had will disappear as you grow together. Frankie will be resilient, motivated, hilarious, kind, happy, these are the dreams I had for my child. She will be invited to birthday parties and have a solid team of family, friends, teachers, and therapists backing her. There is nothing to grieve.

She will be ok. 

More than ok.

And so will you.

Anna McMillan is a mother, early childhood educator, and advocate for children like Frankie who have the right to acceptance and opportunities to live rich and fulfilling lives.

Posted by Sonya McIntyre

Sonya was born in Lower Hutt and went to Rata Street Kindergarten and Petone Kindergarten. A qualified ECE, she studied at Victoria University in Wellington and has worked with home-based educators, in community-based childcare and in kindergarten. With childhood memories of reading books and writing stories, combined with her passion for all things social media, Sonya segued into her role with us at Storypark as social media manager.

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  1. This post is about my beautiful granddaughter Frankie.
    Sadly we haven’t met her yet but I hope to soon.
    We have two beautiful grandchildren.



    1. Hi Tim,
      Frankie is certainly a beautiful girl who has had such a positive impact on many peoples lives! We are so happy to be able to share her, Tim and Anna’s journey with the world!


  2. Anna you are amazing and Frankie is gorgeous. ❤️ Jenna Slade and her mum in Dunedin.
    Avah misses Frankie. We are so pleased all is going well. You’ve got lots to be proud of and Frankie has got a great mummy and daddy.


    1. Jenna thank you so much! And back at you. I hope you and Avah are doing amazingly xxx


  3. Anna,your story is so moving. Frankie is the most beautiful person and has such a presence about her. What a huge contribution she makes every day to all of us around her in so many ways at only 2yrs old. I look forward to her joy every day.


    1. We love you Rose xox We’re so lucky to have an incredible community


  4. So lovely to read your story Anna. A story that all kaiako must hear. I too believe these beautiful tamariki are here to teach us all. Its wonderful to hear your journey.


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